Ugh.

Initial: 266
Two Weeks Ago: 247.4
This Week: 244.2
Change: -3.2
Overall: -21.8

Those numbers are as of Friday! Wow, I'm over the 20lb hurdle! That's pretty cool. I just keep amazing myself with this weight loss stuff. Remember, I've never successfully lost weight in my entire life. This is just neat-o.

So!

My "ugh" comes from a lot of things. For example, I am currently dying.

Not like, really dying, but the, "I'm sick and feel so much like shit that I'm going to tell everyone I'm dying" feeling. Right now, my throat hurts, my head hurts, my face hurts, I can't breathe AND my nose is running at the same time (I am typing with a wad of tissue up my nose to stop that flow), and I still haven't heard back from my boss to see if he'll let me stay home today and make it up later in the week. :(

I hate being sick. I always become such a whiney baby when I'm sick. But jeez, it still sucks.

Also, I was severely let down last week.

My personal trainer quit on me. And not even in a proper way, either. Remember how I said he kept rescheduling on me? Well, all of a sudden, he just disappeared. Just **poof!**, he's nowhere to be found.

I paid for my sessions through my gym, and they said he just stopped showing up. They don't even know where he went! And the ass was ignoring my text messages, too! At first I was worried, but once I found out he quit, I was just pissed off.

I mean, hey, dude, if you have to quit for whatever reason, it's common courtesy to let me know first. Don't just disappear like you're trying to break up with me or something. I would have understood, seriously. You gotta do what you gotta do, right? I thought we were friends, but I guess not, 'cause the guy STILL hasn't replied to me. I even sent him a Facebook message that I know he saw ('cause Facebook added that creeper "Seen" thing on the messages), and didn't send anything back.

I officially don't like him anymore. That was just completely disrespectful, in my opinion.

Yeah, I'm throwing a fit.

Anyway, I have a new trainer now, and I'll meet with him on Tuesday. Hopefully, he doesn't suck. I have a really high standard for trainers, because I don't tolerate idiots, especially for the amount I paid for sessions. As long as he seems knowledgeable about what to do to help me towards my goals, and is engaged in what we do, then fine, we have a deal.

But yeah, I totally didn't need that whole bout of disappointment so early in my weight loss journey. It felt like he just gave up on me. Like I wasn't worth it. Oh well, I'm just gonna have to get over it.